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four more days to end of exams.
Actually it wont be wrong to say 3 more days. some how i am feelin detached from the world. somehow when socialising takes up more and more effort, i'm just hoping that holidays would get shorter and shorter. yeah. i like short hols for the same reasons why i buy small cards during christmas. probably there is a huge anti social me in me. alter ego. one that is in constant "screen saver mode". void space and time gives me e sense of emptiness that i cannot handle at times. a reason behind my rather-packed eca life.
I think too much. i'm aware of that. ever since young in fact, in a rather morbid fashion actually. i have rather low self worth. being alone drives me crazy, for i'll probably end up in a endless downward spiral of depression. then the next time i appear in crowds, i'll firmly believe that everyone hates me. maybe not to that extent. I'll think that no one feels that i am important enough for them to talk to me.
Of course, they dont have any obligations to entertain me.
yeah isolation drives me mad. i survive on attention. i knoe.. i knoe..
Actually it wont be wrong to say 3 more days. some how i am feelin detached from the world. somehow when socialising takes up more and more effort, i'm just hoping that holidays would get shorter and shorter. yeah. i like short hols for the same reasons why i buy small cards during christmas. probably there is a huge anti social me in me. alter ego. one that is in constant "screen saver mode". void space and time gives me e sense of emptiness that i cannot handle at times. a reason behind my rather-packed eca life.
I think too much. i'm aware of that. ever since young in fact, in a rather morbid fashion actually. i have rather low self worth. being alone drives me crazy, for i'll probably end up in a endless downward spiral of depression. then the next time i appear in crowds, i'll firmly believe that everyone hates me. maybe not to that extent. I'll think that no one feels that i am important enough for them to talk to me.
Of course, they dont have any obligations to entertain me.
yeah isolation drives me mad. i survive on attention. i knoe.. i knoe..
posted by beetlecar at 1:35 am
1 Vroom Vroom !:
hey girl.. why the sudden depression? talking about anti-social.. i just ignored several familiar faces along the walkway and on the bus last night... had the same exam venue as wei wei.. bleah =p
anyway.. cheer up yah... for one, you'll always be an important friend of mine and i'm sure load of others as well... so dont let isolationism get to you... you aint alone and nobody hates you... Smilez, Hui Lin =)
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