Attitude problem

mine. my attitude problem

supp to hav a photoshoot todae. i was watchin my phone e whole of yest wating for details for e pd says she wld tell me details.

nothing.

this mornin at 8am i suddenly got a sms askin me whether i am goin. venue was there too. but hmm.. drifted back to sleep very soon. then e phone rang. i chose to ignore it. when i am finally more awake, i went to chk out e venue. potong pasir. sms back n said i wasnt told of anything. which is e truth. n i was informed tt they got e mc pub to help.

hmm.. not sure if i shd b happy or angry. think i am jus amused. rather irritated in fact. e truth is i nvr asked them where e photoshoot is. a huge part of me cant be bothered. ok i think that is pretty unfair for ball. for its tri tat drove my guard up. e unwillingness to update ppl in tt comm made me given up hope. everything we are doin now bypasses e pds. we go for recee when we think we shd, we call for meetins as we deem fit. the comm has still not yet met as a whole, e contact list is hopelessly outdated. we hav 3 wks to e event. but generally, i dont see e point in being pro active and get shot by arrows left right up down. think its a wrong choice to join either comm.

anyhow, all e bitchin is not makin things any better. we are jus reenforcin our negative views on them.

i dont reali know who to fault this time round. guess when pple behave like leaders i expect them to fulfil duties of leaders. so u cant throw ur weight ard n expect others to cover ur ass. so when i am arrowed to do stuff, i expect u to fulfill ur side of e bargain too.

for now i chose to b passive. no one ask me to move, i wont move. no one tell me when to move, i wont move either. wats e point? any moves by me ends in a bang into e wall. might as well wait

more wait less haste ...



i am turnin so evil...